blues driven mood

Bad night,....last night I just off my game: point 1, I got little to no writing done...point 2, I just felt hopeless a feeling I rarely get in to because its a place I don't want to be in EVER.... I need hopefulness and courageous thoughts.....rightly so because I've had enough bad times going around in my life that must people couldn't take.....but I go on.....I need to go on...because I can't do what I do.......what else is there but just living....